Sunshine.

Do you ever talk to someone and feel...happy? Not the kind of happy people talk about feeling with their SOs or family. Not the conventional, I'm smiling and laughing kind of happy that comes from this feeling called love, be it romantic or platonic. I mean the kind of happy that makes you feel light, at ease and can only come from another person's natural vibe. Like, you're having a conversation with this person and you're not anxious, you're not intimidated, you're not worried...You're just talking. When was the last time you had a conversation which wasn't loaded with pain? Or worry? Or any negative emotion? When was the last time you had a conversation that didn't have this dark cloud just looming over it?

I've been having those conversations. Untainted. Colourful. Carefree. Its like running through a field of soft, delicate flowers, when there's a slight yet cold breeze which, at any other time would make you feel a little cold, but right now it doesn't cause the sun is at that perfect spot, allowing you to enjoy the field. Allowing you to run through it without feeling slick with sweat or so cold, you can barely breathe. Its that perfect sunny day, that perfect sunshine. That's how these conversations have been feeling.

How can a conversation make you feel so much? Of course it can. It doesn't have to be deep, meaningful conversations. It doesn't even have to be a conversation about something you both have in common. It just has to be a conversation where you can feel the other person's genuine interest in listening to what you have to say. A smile automatically creeping up on their face when yours lights up. Their head nodding vigorously when you say something exciting or that quick response on WhatsApp even if all you say is "lol". When the silence comes, no discomfort. No forced effort to keep the conversation flowing, you just enjoy the silence and naturally come back into conversation. 

If you share something troubling you, you don't feel condescension coming in response, you feel warmth. Even if they don't understand, you can see they want to. Just for you, they want to understand.

Its that unconditional interest you feel bouncing off them and into you that keeps you talking. Even a naturally good listener will not be able to invoke that feeling in you. Its that vibe, the kind of vibe that makes you feel like you aren't going to be judged for simply being you. So full of life and warmth. All the person wants to do is spread the happiness, not expecting anything in return. Why? Well, because they care. Isn't it wonderful to be cared for? For someone to simply want to see the best in you because they see it? Everyone needs someone like that in their life.
Everyone needs that perfect sunshine.